From weight loss to peace

I am on a journey.  To find confidence, peace and purpose.  I want to tame the chaos which I have lived in for many years.  After having my third child, I realized that I didn’t know who I was anymore.  I literally felt crazy.  I couldn’t concentrate, I was spinning my wheels and I would cry often and yell even more often.  Mostly at my kids, sometimes at my husband. I couldn’t take it anymore….I had to get my life under control.

So I googled it.

Google: Make my life better

I started where I thought I could have the most control and had previous success…weight loss.  At that time, I was tipping the scales at 240 lbs.  I was desperate. I scoured the internet for the best, fastest way I could lose weight. Soon I discovered juicing and the amazing benefits of juicing vegetables and fruits.  Eventually, I did a few detoxes and lost weight fairly easily.  This eventually led me to a documentary called Hungry for Change.

This documentary changed my life trajectory from that first moment I watched it.  A light of passion flickered within me. I couldn’t get enough information.  This film is about the effects of processed food and sugar.  What it does to our bodies, brains, kids and health.  It opened my eyes to why I felt so awful.  My husband and I immediately took action and started to change the way we ate and shopped.  I was hooked.

Documentaries

I watched more and more documentaries.

Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead
The Gerson Miracle
Food Matters
May I be Frank
FMTV, Netflix for documentaries
And so many more…

After watching Hungry for Change, one of the featured speakers really resonated with me. His name is Jon Gabriel.  Jon lost over 200 lbs without dieting because he really looked at why he was gaining weight.  He had tried every diet under the sun, but kept gaining weight.  He soon realized that it was so much more than dieting and exercise.  That he needed to get his mind in the right place to be able to ever get his life under control again.

This finally clicked for me.  I realized that this was the key to my struggle.  Sorting out the crazy in my life would not only get me out of crazy town, but get me to where I wanted to be physically, mentally and spiritually.  Once you deal with all of the mental/stress issues, you start realizing what it is that’s going on within yourself.  That all of your happiness comes from within.