Are you struggling with your New Year’s Resolutions, purpose or sticking to your goals? I’m sharing my story of awakening to my miracles and direction to fulfilling them.
At the end of last year (2016) I was asked to write out 1-3 miracles that I wanted to create by the end of 2017. If I achieved these goals, I would really feel like I had accomplished something and furthered my vision for myself. I’ve never been too keen on New Year’s resolutions. Why set goals that you’re never going to follow through with, but this year is different. I have tasted what it feels like to dream big and actually believe it’s possible. So as I thought about these miracles, I felt excited and also scared at the same time. I was excited that by the end of 2017 I would be living my miracles, and that would mean I believed in myself. But I was also scared because “what if I fail….myself…again”. I wrote my two miracles down and felt hopeful.
My two miracles
- Lose 50lbs by December 2017
- Create a passive income coming closer toward my dream of working from home
I started on #2 right away. I created a blog and have started contributing and setting up affiliates. I’ve fallen in love with blogging. It is my outlet. A place to share my journey and give it a name. A place to connect. My second miracle hasn’t been so easy. I’ve not changed my eating habits or started exercising because I keep waiting for this magical “thing” to happen, a “click” and it all falls into place and becomes easy. But as of March 10, that hadn’t happened.
Push
I went to an event in December hosted by the life coach I am working with. During this event I wrote my two miracles. I won a private coaching call with the coach and had that call last week. It couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. I was feeling pretty low because of a combination of winter blues and not making progress on my miracles. I felt stagnant and was spiraling down to a depressive state.
My coach pushed me on that call. She stood in the fire and shot flaming arrows at me. She landed direct hit after hit after hit about my blocks and what was holding me back. I play victim because of my past. I am waiting for someone to rescue me or do the work for me….a magic pill…killing myself, my kids and my relationships with my habits. By not shining my light, I am depriving those around me with my gifts. She made me see that even though I had so many people in my life that love me, I wasn’t loving myself. I was doing a disservice to all those around me by not living to my potential. No one is going to rescue me, I have to be my own hero. This was the push that I needed. I finally turned it around.
The Big Shift
Other than hearing the truth, my mind shifted during that call. I don’t need things to be perfect before I start. I keep waiting for a spark, for the burning desire to make changes…waiting for months. But waiting for crisis mode or burning desire this is just diet mentality. “I will be happy when I lose weight”, “I will start Monday”, “I ate bad today, I am bad”, “I ate good today, I can be happy”. These are all part of the mentality that things have to be perfect to “_____”. If you have a bad day, own it, feel it, do not dis-engage with food or TV, whatever your drug of choice…instead, feel your feelings.
My mindset has shifted from being being perfect and a “miracle” that may or may not happen, to THIS is my job. THIS is my purpose. I’m GOING to make it happen. My miracles are my purpose. I’m going to do everything in my power to make this happen. Instead of it being something I’m working on on the side, it is my focus, my job. I get to spend my time working on this and not just hoping it will happen.
This shift in thinking is helping me enjoy the process so much more. I GET to work on something that make me happy and is fulfilling my dreams. This is so empowering. I’m not longer waiting…I’m taking it into my own hands.
Being tested
I was actually tested on this as I was writing this post. How focused are you on these miracles?? For the past two years, I’ve really been pursuing my purpose or new career. My search was for something that would find me freedom. I LOVE technology, and I like helping people. I’m good at it. So I stumbled upon Virtual Assistants. I decided that was my way. It would provide me with an income and I could work from anywhere…boom…FREEDOM!
I found someone who would take me on as an intern and show me the ropes. I really enjoyed the work I was doing and was learning a lot about the process, and what a day to day looks like. We lost contact in October and I haven’t heard from her since. Then yesterday, she emailed me. She offered me a paid internship…pretty good pay for someone with not a lot of experience. I had been working for her for free and it paid off, she saw my skill and wanted me to help with her business.
My first thought was “wow, what an awesome opportunity”. But I wasn’t excited.
A few months ago, I would have been stoked, but once I made the decision in December to drop the distractions and focus on my miracles, I was able to laser focus in on my goals. In that decision, a weight had been lifted from the pressure I felt to find “my purpose”. And in the process, I did find my purpose, but not in a way that I had imagined. It was a hard decision, because opportunities like that don’t come around often. I emailed her this morning and felt a twinge of anxiety in my stomach after I turned it down. “Did I made a mistake? What if that was my opportunity? What if nothing else comes along and I missed my one chance?” BUT I know I made the right decision. It feels right.
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